Jumped the gun yet again... *shocker!*

And suddenly, i am utterly exhausted.
it poured this morning- not the most inspiring way to start a new job.
decided to have one beforehand- just this one time.
And i went to work at 10.
By 11 i hav found out that not only is there no option for health insurance, but they also tip out 10-15% per person (having more than one frequently) and apparently i train for free.
"i did 5 doubles, and i don't think i got paid for it"
um, no.
everything is off the books pretty much.
"we write ourselves checks at night- the drawer usually doesn't have enough cash in it"
"we don't clock in"
by 11:30 i was pretty damn upset that i cancelled the bank interview- actually went to the bathroom to beg a reschedule (checkmate, thank god!)
Spent the rest of the morning and part of the afternoon (still pouring and chilly)
fantasizing about where i was going to go afterwards to gorge.
yeah. good day.

politely told them i wasn't going to come back tomorrow.
ended up going nowhere special...

mom was home, lingering. all i wanted to do was be alone.
she finally left.
and i hunted.
they call me the scav.

In the bathroom, 45min later, christening the toilet and picking the crap out of my face.
(first time in over a week!)
totally destroyed.

and so i watch tv.
cable is really a bad influence.
Golden Girls, The Nanny, and *finally* Futurama.

oh, and i hate facebook.
i always jump the fucking gun.
and look what happens?

this is why i hate telling people anything.
something almost always goes awry, and i feel like an ass.

on a lighter note,
i had a great dream this morning
for some reason, about DS.
but it was awesome.
we actually kissed.
and it was great!

i need to meet some people. or go out.
less than 30 days, right ?